Last day at work le...

Haha today is my last day le... new guy come le... teach him a few things here and there so he can handle the things when im gone... haha quite nice guy la... knowing that i like songs he stil take the trouble to burn cd for me... he is here since Thursday le... got a little company for my last few days haha... but due to age gap haha not much things to talk about...
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Yea was supposed to treat my collegues de... but i tink alot of them thought that my last day is next week... so they never ask me bout the treat... hmm i wun be coming back liao... so instead juz bought back a pack of donuts for them... tink they abit unhappy cuz was supposed to be lunch de haha... but nvm la haha... at least a little something better den nothing...
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Today is Eileen's birthday haha... happy bday le may all your wishes and dreams come through... hope she do well in her university studies le and may she be happy always haha... yup tink they are celebrating at K-Box today...
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Yup its bout 530 le... bout an hour or so before i go home le... haha duno suld be happy or not lol... stopping work means NS coming liao le... frankly im quite prepared bout the whole thing le... juz worried bout feeling lonely inside... hmm hope to meet some nice friends over there la...
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Today paid May Ee and Hui Li their pay... totals up to about $150 liddat... stil owe Ting they all bout $50 liddat... hmm overall my bank account only increase bout 1.2k++ liddat only after two and a half months of working, thats after i pay my debt and spent $100 on clothes... hmm weird leh duno why become so little...
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Yup nothing much le... found something which is nice for couples haha... "Love like she's the first. Fight like he's the last..." sweet haha... take care ppl hav a great weekend...

Pondering...

Something done by Jie Xin haha... Yup "Why be optimistic & end up disappointed, when you can be pessimistic & perhaps be pleasantly surprised?"... haha but sometimes being negative may not be a good... it lowers our confidence and dulls our motivation... on the other hand being positive would give us a renewed strength to push on... so... which one is better? haha... take care...

Progress...

Ystd was playing the guitar... haha duno suld be happy or not, my changing of chords from Bm to F is faster by 0.2 sec le... its quite insignificant but at least its abit la... ystd i tried out the 4/4 strumming pattern on the changing of the Bm to F chord also... it was really a strain on the muscle near my thumb because the duration of 4/4 beat is longer... the muscle got so tired that i had to let go at the tenth time i change the chord... was unable to continue le... so decided to pluck the tune of the song "Hero" by Enrique Iglesias... turned out quite well haha tink cuz its easy... haha and also my voice is recovering le... yup slept well last night due to the accumulated tiredness...
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LOL today the first thing that happen to me at work is that Dolly blame me ystd work never go find her... joker... haha den she went on and on wanting me to treat them lunch cuz its gona be my last day at work soon... tink gona treat Elaine and Dolly only cuz they're the only ones im closer to la... Yeap funny ppl lol...
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Hmm ystd saw something on Yanling's msn nick... which she had found it somewhere... its very meaningful la haha i like it alot... "True love does not have a happy ending, because true love does not have an ending..." haha impacted me alot... short post today but the nice quote should be more den enough... smilez :)

Can't slp...

Ystd tink about 3.45 liddat den finally fall asleep... duno why i cant leave my mind blank think here think there... damm sian leh... especially when u know that there's work tml... i tossed and turned for about one and half hour or so... today wake liao, expected... tired...
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Haha speaking of being unable to slp... when i was young i was super afraid of the dark... i will always tell my mum to accompany me to slp... my bed has two levels... so she will always slp below me... hmm when i cant slp... i wil juz turn and tell my mum... eh mummy wo shui bu zao (means i cant slp in chinese)... her answer will always be the same... guan yan jing(means close your eys in chinese)... although i know this will always be her ans... i will always ask even when she's sound asleep le... haha duno why, maybe juz for the assurance ba... den i can slp le haha... childhood memories lol...
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Haha theres one more method which i always use when i cant slp... i wil close my eyes and i will look at the back of my eyelids... though its pitch darkness... but sometimes if u concentrate hard enough, u will see patches of white light... everytime its a different pattern... i dun tink u all understand la... but its very fun de... muz really concentrate very hard and look in front when u close your eyes... haha i tink it blocks out other thoughts so allows me to slp easier... u all can try also haha...
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Ohh ystd found some new songs again haha... post on blog next week... the songs are by Enrique Iglesias... haha nice vocal and hot looks... cool...
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Yup a sweet thing to share...
A girl asked a boy if she was pretty.
He said no.
She asked him if he wanted to be with her forever.
He said no.
She then asked him if he would cry if she walked away.
He again said no.
She had heard too much.
She needed to leave.
As she walked away, he grabbed her arm and told her to stay, he said,"You're not pretty, you're beautiful. I don't want to be with you forever, I need to be with you forever. I wouldn't cry if you walked away, I would die."

New song...

Hmm got a new song introduced by one of my friends... haha its a super sad song but its very nice la... the lyrics alone is already good le... i love this song... so hope u all enjoy it too... yup and learn to treasure your loved ones... the lyrics are below... let the words stir your hearts for a moment...

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-Tonight I Wana Cry-

-Keith Urban-

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Alone in this house again tonight

I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine

There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me

The way that it was and could have been surrounds me

I'll never get over you walkin' away

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I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show

And I thought that bein' strong meant

never losin' your self-control

But I'm just drunk enough to let got of my pain

To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain

From my eyes

Tonight I wanna cry

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Would it help if I turned a sad song on

'All By Myself' would sure hit me hard now that you're gone

Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters

It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better

But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

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I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show

And I thought that bein' strong meant

never losin' your self-control

But I'm just drunk enough to let got of my pain

To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain

From my eyes

Tonight I wanna cry

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I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show

And I thought that bein' strong meant

never losin' your self-control

But I'm just drunk enough to let got of my pain

To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain

From my eyes

Tonight I wanna cry

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Haha yup thats all... something to share by an unknown person... i tink its really really awesome... "Love me when I least deserve it, because that's when I really need it..." hope u all understand wat it means la... i pondered for sometime before figuring out... but once u know the meaning... u'll agree wif me that this phrase is really great... take care ppl...

Yi Jia Ren Chalet...

Hey blogging from home now... many things to update today...
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4th of July is my birthday haha... alot of church ppl wished me happy birthday so thanx alot le... hmm was practising guitar wanted to bring it wif me to the chalet... to play for Ting... but my throat really cannot le, i cant reach high keys, even for my own song i cant... so i was devastated la so decided not to bring it le... guess its fated... i dunwana give a lousy performance also... woke up at around 11am packed my things and went to the chalet myself... Haha this chalet is for a particular group in the class only la... hmm consist of Jie Xin, Swee San, Fong Lin, Yan ling, Shane, Eileen, Ting and me la... we named this group Yi Jia Ren la haha... hmm it was cause of Ting that i am a part of the group...
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Hmm when i reached the chalet they were already playing UNO stacko le... yup after awhile i went out to buy some things with Shane and when we returned, the lights were switched off and there was a nice mango cake for me accompanied by the nice bday songs... they chipped in to get a few clothes for me too... Ting gave me a personal gift... a key chain wif the shape of a guitar... those type where often malay ppl set up stalls in pasa malam, and they wil make it on the spot for u... haha to tink of it, i duno why but it really hurts me... we passed by so many such shops saying how nice their craftwork was... now it has become my birthday gift... but i loved the keychain alot alot... yup besides all the presents, they also prepared a card...
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Yup later on we continued playing la... til its dinner time when we settled our meal in the kopitiam... yup after that went to play pool wif the whole group... everybody dun know how to play de... only Shane, Ting and me know how... so we teached them along the way la... was very very fun... and super funny la... and best of all its cheap...
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After that we went to the arcade hmm played the basketball machine... i kip losing leh... whoever teams wif me sure get the lowest score de... duno why liddat... tink too easy le thats why i cant do it wahaha... no la i suck in that game... haha we went on to Daytona after that and i continued my losing streak haha...
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It was quite late le so we went back to chalet to play games... its very difficult to explain the games la... but its all those games that were played by stars on tv... for eg, 1 representative frm each grp wil act out something and the others wil try to guess... haha and so much more la...we played truth or dare... and really frm that game i really understood everybody at a deeper level la... had fun slept around 4am...
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Haha the next day.... we were supposed to go to Sentosa de, seeing that the sky was turning grey, we decided to get a few VCDs to watch at home... after much looking around we decided to get Primeval, Pretty Woman and Poseidon... we watched Primeval first... ok i think its really boring la... yea haha after that everybody was falling asleep la... so everybody went on to play Dai Di and mahjong... i went out to grab something to eat...
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Hmm actually was feeling very lost at that time la... same old things bothering me... haha so took that excuse to go out for a walk... i went to the beach there... the journey there was so hot but i was shivering from the occasion cold winds... felt very emo at that time... i went to the rock where Ting and Me first vandalised something haha... we made an agreement that we'll come and vandalise one rock each year... sigh its smudged already le... no longer that clear anymore... guess it cant take the continuous pounding of the rain... so it fades... all that is left now is juz some little outlines and a few tears of my own there... took a picture of it... really means alot to me... sigh... dwelled there for a little longer before going back to get something to eat...


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When i got back... played abit of Dai Di wif Eileen Fong lin and Jie Xin... haha i kip winning yea... then we went to dinner at the same kopitian... we returned early cuz many wanted to see Lin Yu Zhong on tv... he's one with great talents and he has a great voice and best of all he played the guitar too... after that we played some games again... this time it was something like a test on everybody's understanding on each other... we wil set questions regarding ourselves to let others guess the correct ans... haha everybody did badly la... but it was fun...
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Continued with the second movie... Pretty Woman... this movie is quite an old movie le... its very meaningful... how a hooker and a selfish businessman fell in love with each other... how the hooker was changed by the businessman to be a straight lady... and how the businessman was changed by the hooker to be a person who does business wif compassion... ok i did quite a bad description... go catch it very nice de... i love something that they said at the last part when they finally got each other... the businessman asked the woman "So wat happened after the knight climbs up the tower to save the princess?" the woman replied "the princess saves the knight right back"... SOOOOO sweet la haha... nice show...
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Everybody was tired le... so we never get to watch Poseidon... yup we woke at 6am and took a taxi home to our respective homes... when i alighted from the taxi i looked at Ting from the back window... she never turned back...
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Yup dragged myself up home... i took out the card and read the msges one by one... i was really reading wif tears... i duno why... im juz very touched... did a msg for everyone to thank them for their efforts... and thats basically wats happened...
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Oh ya here's a picture when she visited my mum a few weeks back only... juz let u all c ba :)


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This year my birthday was happy... but... its juz that i didn't get to share it wif anybody...
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Thanx to all once again... i love u all... sry for taking 5 min of your time but thanx for reading :) Yup... "A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out." Walter Winchell... Take care le...

Happy Gathering...

Hmm few days no blog le... many things happened... start wif Saturday ba... Hmm was actually going to tuition de but end up never... went to church later on... yup pastor preached bout the things which most christians missed out on... she brought us back on track la... Yup after that church friends prepared a card and bought a small cheese cake to celebrate my bday la... hmm was happy la... thanx ppl appreciate it alot :)
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On Sunday met up wif Benjamin his girlfriend Michelle and Leonard... hmm we met at Jurong Point at 6pm... haha as always they were late bout 20 min liddat... haha we went to buy the tickets for TRANSFORMERS... later on we ate korea cuisine... haha chatted alot through our meal... as our movie was quite late... we went to play pool... actually i dun intend to play de... cuz i duno how... but seeing that the group dun really hav a common interest besides pool, so i juz go wif them lo... haha very very funny lo the game cuz we kip missing alot of easy shots haha... Ben and Michelle team up... Leonard and me team up... sian la we lost 3 games to 1 haha but cant blame la... i was juz hitting the ball happily only haha... wa Michelle also know how to play de haha tink she score more den Ben... yup after that went to get some things to drink and eat before going to the cinema... we were sitting at the second row... it was so uncomfortable la... and very difficult to see the graphics clearly cuz too close to the screen le... the movie was nice juz disappointed at the view... becuz of that i cant tell which is good guy which is bad guy... and it seem juz like a whole chunk of metals crashing into one another... but got to admit the actions were great and long and very funny also haha... Yup if we were at the back sit... we would hav enjoyed the movie more... it was about 1130 le when the movie ended... Leonard got to rush home while Ben Michelle and me boarded the 198 bus... haha for the whole journey really really had a great time chatting to Ben, he told me bout his Manchester trip wat he learned and so on la... haha very sorry to Michelle la cuz Ben never talk to her on the trip back... but she's a very understanding girl so dun tink she will mind such things... haha so little time yet so much to catch up... haha i sent Ben a msg after the gathering regarding how i enjoyed the time la... haha he replied that he enjoyed too and that he stil remembered all the times that we had together, he also added an extra "friends forever"... haha really means alot to me... hope we can hav another outing soon...
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When i reached home sat down, i suddenly got an inspiration to write a song la... so since juz got back from gathering decided to do a song for Ben... haha finished the chorus le and also some parts of the verse... Hmm hope can do a good one la... yup speaking of song quite sad la... i did not do a good job for Milton's tune... i got the wrong tune... means i used a similar tune but not the correct one... so the lyrics would be hard to fit lo... haiz v disappointed though... he said that he dunwan the lyrics cuz he dunwana change my lyrics juz to suit his tune as it'll be unfair to me... and he says my version of singing the lyrics is nice... so he told me to improve on the song lo... though its a kind way to put it la... but its stil very sad la... well its my fault la for not making sure the tune was right... sigh im a let down... Hmm Milton said that if i improved on my strumming patterns it would be a great song... cuz he told me that my strumming is all over the place totally weird... now been learning the basics again le... counting "1 and 2 and 3 and 4 and" lol juz hope it helps la... now im also training the barre chords F and Bm... i told myself this two chords first... muz get it quick and get it right... so i juz change F to Bm 20 times whenever i pick up the guitar...
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Yup tml is chalet le... im juz looking forward to seeing u again... duno if i wana bring my guitar anot... cuz im really quite lousy still... and due to all the junk food my voice is totally CMI... but i duno if i stil got any chance to meet u after the chalet anot... so guess i'll probably juz bring and play it for u only... dun laugh wor haha...
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Hmm nothing much le... today i looked at the mirror when i was changing... i smiled and found out that it was not so smooth anymore le... hmm tink its been long since i stayed happy for a whole day... juz hope it gets better la... yup a nice phrase to share... "To gain that which is worth having, it may be necessary to lose everything else." -Bernadette Devlin. very true... but sometimes the question is do we know what is worth having?? take care ppl...

Junk food spree...

Wa this few days really ate alot of junk... unhealthy things... even healthy things also eat until bad... on Wednesday i ate 4 eggs altogether... so much la... Hmm ate fried chicken chop rice for dinner... at night finished one big packet of potato chips... Den Thursday ate KFC for lunch... So much chicken and oil and pepsi... almost all meals are fried food... at night supper wif Milton and Wilson... i ate 2 eggs again and condensed milk drink which is so so sweet... After the two days my body really cant take it le... stomach so pain... its not the type of pain where when u relieve it den it wil be gone... it is the type pain that signals u tat you r falling sick... today breakfast i stil ate chicken nuggets for breakfast... later gona hav lunch wif Wee Ling they all le... Wee Ling today last day at work sure got junk food again de... Hmm muz stop this le... otherwise really gona fall sick...
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Duno if its juz me or is the weather getting hot... i tink i hav the power to control sweating... when im out on gatherings or any other outings i wil always control my sweat so tat if possible not a single drop la... haha when doing sports juz let it flow... cool huh lol... Hmm lately i feel that im the one emitting so much heat... even the walk frm my house to the MRT station wuld make me highly uncomfortable... so hot... Haha remember got one night it was raining... and it was very cold outside la... as it was late le i closed my windows and door to practise guitar... it was really hot inside haha den when i practise finish my whole window fogged up haha i also shock... my mum says im heaty lol... hmm maybe ba... muz start to tc of myself le...
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Tink im gona meet up wif Ben to watch Transformers on Saturday or wat de... havent decide yet... this few days had a fair share of wins and losses in dota... haha had a great time cuz Ben can join us liao...
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Haha nothing much liao... something relevant to share today... old chinese saying... "Trouble comes out from the mouth and sickness comes in through the mouth"... not very accurate la... direct translation lolx... haha duno why frm young im tinking of ways to dispute this saying haha juz felt that the saying is abit too vague... but is stil very true la haha... tink b4 u talk or eat haha... smilex ppl...

Reflections...

Hmm today juz saw Bryan's blog... some sad news for him la... hmm this friend had always been there for it whether i need it or not... 24 - 7 listener... hmm den today den i realise bout his sad news la... Hmm God is up to something... and it will be something totally awesome... You are a great person... so many ppl are behind you... hmm tc le...
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Hmm ystd felt really pissed at something so small la... i feel that there had been a problem wif me for quite a long time le... i always get sad or angry at the slightest things... i wil do things out of impulse also... i might feel nothing at that moment... but after bout 20 min or so when i reflect on my actions... i will regret it... alone in my room tears wil juz form and i wil always ask myself... why am i like this... im not like this de... haix very sad... there used to be somebody who encouraged me and gave me more confidence in myself cuz she was the only person who knows this... now i muz pick myself up everytime and give myself a chance... haix wats done is done... wats the point of regretting when things are over... sigh... ystd though i did not greatly offend or anger anybody but in my heart no matter how small a mistake is... a mistake is a mistake... it really made me felt bad bout myself... maybe its also because of the words from all my loved ones that hav hurt me before... i duno how to explain... Hmm juz something personal bout me ba...
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Hmm Benjamin Chua is back from Manchester le... my good friend... ystd the small thing got something to do wif him de... but he knows me quite well too... so tink he used to it le... yup hope to go out wif him one day before my NS starts... this frien had never failed to make me laugh la... remembering when i was in secondary sch wif him... when i bored i wil call him juz to disturb him for awhile... den he wil entertain me with his jokes... we also used to quarrel over some things... over disagreements and even pokemon cards etc... haha we even made a stupid but constructive pact together... we made a pact that we wil not gang up to cheat on ppl anymore le... hmm i guess he's ok wif it since its in the past so i share abit la... we were something like con mans la... we go around cheating younger ppl to exchange expensive rare cards for our not so valuable ones... so when im in action he wil go and help me la... saying this one good trade or what de... haha in return i help him when he is in action la... den using the same methods we sell the cards together at a higher price la... ok ok i know we are like total ass holes... we knew it was wrong la... so we made a pact lo and we really stood strong... so really no more of such things le... haha had so much fun during my sec sch times wif him... Overall he's a great person la... he is very secure bout himself... he remembers the good things and forgets the bad almost one day after... Yup he's an awesome friend, a humorous figure and a far away brother to me...
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Yup congrats to Ting who got into uni... seems like everything is getting better le... haha hope it wil stay this way le... yup take care of yourself... cya soon le...
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Hmm today i talked to another guy playing maple... he is a drop out la... reason... he pon sch juz to play maple... so tink the principle basically granted his wish la... i asked him why he gave up something so important for something so insignificant... he cant gave me a ans... he told me that he's going to go to another sch next year... i forgot the name le... but the sch is for PSLE failures... drop outs... or students who are expelled... and he told me if lucky can go ITE... i feel that wif so many ppl who hav no intention of studying... they may juz influence one another... and majority wil juz end up giving up studying again... juz hope that the guy is the minority and wil make it one day... Hmm den he told me his maple account can sell bout 8k to 9k... basically i tink its crap la... if he can sell it... the person who buys it is seriously dumb... i dun even hav 8k on me lo... spend 8k on games?? zzz i rather slp on the bank notes...
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Hmm nothing more le... later gona continue wif Bleach... hmm yup something to share again i saw this some time ago... this is very strong... "The most powerful weapon on earth is the human soul on fire." ~ Ferdinand Foch ~ i love this so much... light yourself on fire and be wat u want to be... hmm hav a great day ahead ppl :)

Interesting day...

Hmm ystd woke at 11am go bathe le den go straight to Bishan... the journey was so long lo... went to the CPF building to change the router... Its been so long since i last came to Bishan... so decided to shop for some clothes... haha lucky for me most things were on sale la... i spent about $96 on two long sleeves and three T-shirts... ok la like it quite alot... was wanting to get jeans de... but i spend too much liao so decide to wait for my next pay den go shop abit... Yup after shopping there till bout 1330 liddat... i went down to Plaza Sing to get the guitar bag... but suay it was their anniversary so they are closed for the day lo haha... Sad so i juz walked around look abit here and there lo haha...
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Yup after that went to meet Elaine... hmm she also change le... grew long hair haha cool... hmm we went to watch the movie Fantastic Four... haha very nice and funny la... the movie got into the nice part very fast... haha i like the silver surfer... he is so cool la... and he got nice silver muscles lol... i like the part where he grabbed the human torch up into space suffocating him haha... nice nice... we both enjoyed the movie alot la... the ending part was also very cool... those who haven watch it yet... i shall not spoil the fun haha...
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After the movie we went to meet Shermaine... haha she stil the same cute look but mature haha no big difference haha... we had Korea Cuisine for dinner... we had a long chat thru our meal... haha catch up on lots of stuff... through them also got some information bout other friends... den later talked bout things on love and stuff lol... Shermaine like specialist liddat she doing the talkin while Elaine and i listened lol... haha oh ya they very waste food also... so nice the Korea Cuisine but they left so much meat there... felt like helping them eat lol... Yup after that was bout 730 le... Shermaine had to go off for tuition liao le... was wanting to take some pics with them but since she rushing i guess next time ba haha... had a fun day though...
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Hmm went home after my bro fixed the router my zion programme can be used again le haha... weird... yup i tink on Sunday me and milton were disagreeing on somethings la... about dota... yup kinda wanted to settle the scores ystd haha... but disappointment my Pudge lost to his Obsidian Destroyer... felt very demoralised after the game la... my best character... and i failed to defend his name... but Milton's hero build was modified to suit the situation of 1 vs 1 and to counter my hero... means in team games he wil not build his hero in this way... i juz followed my original hero build for team games... so was kinda lost la... haha i hav always guarded one lane wif two heroes against me... and i hav no problems... Milton proved to me hey dude u hav seen nothing yet haha... but i admit la Milton is a much better player den me... he got a mind made for strategies... gona hav my rematch today... gotta plan something out le... even if its a pro like Milton, any other hero i can lose... but not Pudge...
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Today back to work liao le... nothing interesting yet haha... oh ya been liking Wang Li Hong's song lately... haha i like alot of artists now... yup something to share le but not by me... its very very impactful de... "The power of imagination makes us infinite"... and this continues to my friend's msn nick... "Anything that is dreamable is reachable"... Cool yea... haha rock on ppl...