Book out le...

Hmm today booked out at around 2030... reached home bout 2100 le... quite an early book out... yup been adapting le... more friends more fun... but as always stil afraid of the same old things... now i juz wana clear the course and clear it quick... and hopefully get to somewhere nice...
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Tml im gona meet up with some JJ friends le... Eric, Junhao and David haha havent seen them in awhile le... really wana know wats up in their life now... meeting 1pm at Jurong Point... tink im gona be abit late ba... cuz gona tuition Ting's bro... his exams are coming le... wana let him study more but scared later he frustrated again... hmm hope everything turns out well tml ba... Hmm bout the outing stil haven decide where to go after we meet... but mostly is movie and walk walk ba... haha... sit down talk... chill and stuff...
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Oh ya tink next Saturday gona go out with last time secondary school friends... wa if yes den i wil be super happy la... long long time no see them le... haha come to think of it... kinda miss the days with them too... hope the outing can be carried out successfully with good response... haha hope...
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5 days never touch guitar... abit lost touch le... haiz... damm sian... stil muz slowly play back and get the feel back again... haiya... i wana learn la... i hate deproving.... in everything i do... hate it loads...
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Hmm nothing much le... very late le... tml muz wake up early... now gona go watch my favourite anime "Bleach" again... Something nice to share which i feel is very inspiring... from one of my Sergeants in camp... Its not the rank that makes the man... Its the man that makes the rank... haha nice... take care le ppl... nitez world...

Lonely...

Gona book in about 2hrs frm now le... i really dread going back... tinking bout the whole rountine all over again... i dun really have any good friends there also... its been one week le... 9 more weeks to go... 63 more days... sigh...
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Sometimes i really need somebody to be there... Somebody to talk to... Somebody to run to... Somebody to voice out my problems... Somebody to encourage me... Somebody to stand on my side... Somebody to pull me up... Somebody to wipe the tears from my face... Somebody to hear my song... from my guitar... and also from my heart... haiz... Sometimes i really hate life... lonelyness is boundless... my room... my computer... my guitar and... myself...
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"The most painful love there is, is the love left unshown.. A love that cannot be expressed, affection left unknown... The love that withholds touching, afraid of what it would say... And the most painful thing about unexpressed love is... it never fades away..." --Susan Polis Schutz...
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I miss you so much...


Do u know...?

Sad la...

Juz booked out ystd night came back was around 9 pm something le... Hmm lately been feeling chest pains... when i run for awhile and i really mean awhile... i wil start to get out of breath... even in push up positions, i feel very stressed at my chest level there... it makes my breathing difficult... and when i stand up again... i will feel very breathless... and the thing is that the breathlessness will only go away in a matter of hours... so weird de... i dun use to hav this problem de... tink my heart is failing me le... wana train up myself oso cant... Medic course... im stil trying to get out of course... tink i'll spare the details ba...
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Today went to Ting's house to tutor her brother... hmm duno why start awhile he started to get restless den when i gave him some simple things to do... he cried... im very sad leh see him liddat... we two use to play happily de... now liddat... haix he is the second person that cried in front of me in that house le... haix i really feel very sad... am i that bad ma?... i tried talking nicely wif him, try to make him realise tat im trying to help him... but never worked... i also cant scold him cuz wil only make things worse... after very long den managed to calm him... since he dunwana do any work, i played hopscotch with him... yup... soon we had lunch rested awhile den i taught him for another 30 min or so den went back home le... hope next week dun liddat le... his tests are coming... i wana do a good job...
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One week never touch guitar le... sergeants want me to cut fingernails on my right hand... cant really pluck tat well le... plucking with a pick is quite slow... my F and Bm chord changing timing now also slow down le... haix... i wana improve leh.... i stil need to go on to other difficult chords le... like Dm, Bm7, B7, those are not barre chords... but its difficult to reach for me...
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Nothing much le... something to share ba... "We don't stop laughing because we get old; we get old because we stop laughing..." i feel im getting old le... tat explained the chest pains lolx... take care everybody and stay happy...

Nice new song...

Ystd was my ah gong's birthday... went to one of my uncle's house... haha had a fun time playing over there... played alot with Simon Nicole Jamie... talked alot to Wenxin Wenxi... haha Amanda and Hazel very little time spent together, they watching spongebob square pants... hmm i also watching it la super funny haha... after that we sang the birthday song for my grandfather... and had some cheese cake... super nice haha... but very small piece... took many many photos... after that saw my cousin Zi Xuan playing the piano... wow super pro lo... den later Wenxin Wenxi also came to play... they taught me a simple tune frm Jay Chou's last movie... the song is titled "Secret"... haha after repeated teachings, managed juz to do a juz the starting part haha... but very fun leh piano.... yup enjoyed myself... reached home 11pm...
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Been waking early and going out for the past 5 days le... super tired... slept at 3am ystd haha... today waked at 115pm haha... sian la... i love the feeling of lazing in bed...
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Hmm lately found a song... very very nice de... i feel it really expresses wat im thinking... ya lo... hmm though some parts i still dun quite get the meaning... but roughly its there la... hope u all can enjoy it too...
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开场白
蔡依林

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再见面已经是朋友了

我们就这么单纯瞎聊着彼此说以后

时间过了学会珍惜了

原来最初的快乐并不是我们要的

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终于能够坦白说着

我当时的脆弱

是唯一的一次

不留着遗憾的

简单结束了陌生

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我们微笑了

也都不躲了

这单纯的坦诚

就这样我们为彼此推翻着

不扰了

我们都笑了

时间停了

我们珍惜这一刻

放下累积的负荷卸下沉默

学会了不保留

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再见后真的是朋友了

我们都不再单纯

也会笑着看以后

时间过了也更珍惜了

原来当时的快乐仍在你我记忆中

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终于能够坦白说着

我现在不寂寞

是全新的一次

再也没了遗憾

简单地回应着伤痛

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我们微笑了

也都不躲了

这单纯的坦诚

就这样我们为彼此推翻着

不扰了

我们都笑了

时间停了

我们珍惜这一刻

放下累积的负荷卸下沉默

学会了不保留

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我们微笑了

也都不躲了

这单纯的坦诚

你好吗多么默契的开场白

我笑了

我们不走了

不再尴尬了

不回头凑理由

希望我们从此都真的快乐

说好了不说走

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Hmm in my opinion... this song is about a couple who came together easily but broke up due to differences... found out later part that they stil remember and love each other... they met up and both decided to return to each other... i feel its quite romantic but a rare reality... im not really sure if tats the correct meaning la so do correct me bout the meaning if im wrong cuz i wana know... but the last part of the lyrics was really nice... erm all of it is nice la haha... and Jolin's voice really works magic in the chorus really nice... hmm take some time to let it buffer and hope u all like it yea...
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Block leave is over le... 13 days juz like that haha... yup tml going in le... abit sian leh... haha everyone also quite gloomy... except those stay out de ba i guess haha... but haiya stil muz go... muz well live my last day of freedom happily...
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Something profound that u all gotta see... "Love is not blind - it sees more, not less... But because it sees more, it is willing to see less..." by Rabbi Julius Gordon... impacting rite... haha enjoy your weekends ppl... cya all in 5 days time... hopefully less...

Sad man got so zhun or not...

Duno if im sway or wat de... posted to Nee Soon camp... be a medic... and stay in... haiz... all my plans all can scrape liao... no more guitar... no more driving... no more dota... no more going out... haiz of all vocations... why medic de... im super afraid of blood lo... i see fracture pics i oso wana puke liao... tell me inject someone i sure stun there... i ask them if got phobia of such things den how? Then the guy tell me to voice out during my 1st day... den go c doctor... if confirm le... maybe can get re-posted to somewhere else... if they dun approve... den im gona be stuck there for almost 2 years... how sia... sad...
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Pretty much spoiled my mood... went out shopping and played pool with Ting... hmm made me feel a little better la... but come home sian again... feel like canceling all the other plans of going out on Saturday... dun really feel like stepping out le... haiz... no point talking here la... juz Monday i go unit and see how it goes...
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Nothing le... an encouragement quote... "I am not discouraged, because every wrong attempt discarded is another step forward..." Thomas A. Edison...

Im so happy...

Haha... i juz got back home...

Im soooo happy... u know why???? duno rite haha... Today I have managed to complete my song on time... i have managed to sing my song with only one mistake... (this is actually quite bad) and most importantly i managed to surprise her and to see that smile of hers... haha been so long since i last saw that smile up close... Its Ting's birthday today... yup... hahaha i enjoyed talking to her... hope u too... here are the photos taken at her house...

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Happy 19th birthday girl... may happiness and beauty and good things follow u through all of time...
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Nothing much le... today was spend on preparing the song and buying the present and stuff... but it was worth it haha... yup yup lol... something to share by an unknown person... "Life is a journey, and love is what makes that journey worthwhile..." haha take care ppl hav a pleasant night... im so happy haha...

Sian so difficult de...

Sian inspiration can never be forced... done alot of different sets of lyrics... but all i feel very substandard de... so waste alot of time... really muz wait for inspiration... hmm... even the tune also need inspiration... sian duno when den can finish the song...
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Hmm hav to check my posting on the 20th of September... on the 24th wil be going to the unit le... woo... time really flies when u are slacking... Hope i get a nice 8am to 5 pm unit haha... den my plans can carry out le... go find a centre to learn guitar and to carry on tutoring Ting's bro... wa better dun so happy yet... later tio muz stay in de... wil super sad lol...
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Yup thats all le... no programmes for the last few days... juz sian lol... a little something... "We have the power to shrink our dreams to fit reality or the power to stretch our reality to fit our dreams..." by Anon... if everyone thinks this way... wat wil our future be like?? haha... take care ppl...

Sigh sad...

Today went to Ting's house to tutor his youngest bro... he having oral exam on Monday and Tuesday... tml gona go to her house again for another session with him... yup he's quite good with his reading... its juz the picture description... really tires and stresses him out when we were practising...
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Hmm duno why during the time there i felt very lost... although i already know the people there le... but it really feels so weird... i feel like they were strangers to me liddat... after i left... felt very sad... tat... everything had turned out this way...
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Hmm went to JP after that and bought a nice black snow cap... haha duno why i hav a special liking for snow caps... actually frm last time until now, i was hoping that someone wil sew a snow cap for me so that i can wear during slping time haha... yup... went home and tried it out... looks weird... but nvm haha...
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Today met up wif my mentor Mr Chua to collect my pay... just found out that he is gona close down the tuition centre in October le... hmm he told me that he dunhav time for the centre le... by closing it, he would hav more time to focus on his job in Singapore Poly... but i stil feel its abit of a waste la... cuz the centre was already building up a good reputation... but im not in any position to tell him anything la... hmm but im quite proud of the centre... cuz the best thing is that it produces results...
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Another day had passed... hmm... a little something which i came across by an unknown person... "A guy and a girl can be just friends but at one point or another one of them will fall for the other, maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late or maybe, just maybe... forever..."

Im Bored...

Having cough le... after i book out i finished alot of junk food at home... potato chips... seaweed... chocolate... pork floss... within two days all gone le... haha... i asked for it... but junk food is so nice hahaha... muz stop le... cant afford to stay sick...
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Today very sian la... supposed to go out wif army ppl... so many ppl end up not going den i oso sian never go liao... duno when wil we have another outing... bored leh... most of my other friends are studying and having tests... so today i stayed home all day... dota all the way... really become noob le... dun really have the game sense tat i hav before liao... lost most of the matches today... Today also watched a movie at home... Bleach" Memories of nobody"... nice actions during the ending haha... suld go catch the anime haha... its super nice... u wil be awed by the coolness of their characters...
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Nothing much le... hope somebody asks me out soon before time runs out... otherwise really rotting at home le... anywhere wil do... shop or movie or walk walk haha... so do call me if u are equally bored haha...
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Gona go down for supper wif Wilson and Milton le... long time since we three ate together le haha... Something nice to share... "Kind words can be short and easy to speak but their echoes are truly endless..." Mother Theresa... haha so dun hold back ur praises... u might juz make a person's day... tc ppl nitex...

Woot block leave...

Haha me juz book out today... gona post to unit liao le... before that got a long 10 days of holiday... gona hav lots of programmes... i hope lol...
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I felt that i am very lucky to meet such great friends in army... they come from different backgrounds... get to know alot bout their interesting backgrounds... haha i got a friend who was once a gangster la... but he change alot le... had alot of fun talking with him bout his past... got a friend who loves music alot... learns singing and very well trained in instruments... got some friends who are very mature... got some friends who are simply jokers... and so on la... haha... i feel that i've learned alot from them... cuz we wil gather to chat whenever we hav the time... and some views that they share really are different and the best part is that they can explain it till it inspires me also haha... For eg... i asked my friend... hey if you can only save your wife or your son trapped in your house engulfed in flames... who wil u save? one of my joker friends say he'll save the house... but my other friend replied that he'll save the son... den i asked him why... den he said... cuz my wife will wan me to do so... haha i stunned for a moment... cause i've never thought of that... we pratically talked bout almost everything under the sun... Today POC le... hmm gona miss them... hope we can gather once in awhile after we go to our units...
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Hmm nothing much le... today dota was a disaster... got thrashed twice... demoralised... haha but nvm la... now im tinking of writing a song... but im coughing again leh... sian... nvm see how it goes ba... try my best...
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I love this thingy... "When you make a mistake, don't look back at it long. Take the reason of the thing into your mind, and then look forward... Mistakes are lessons of wisdom... The past cannot be changed... The future is yet in your power." -- Phyllis Bottome... Nitez ppl... take care...